sometimes (me)

Sometimes I spend so much time trying to figure out who I am supposed to be that I forget to be who I am. To be me. To be myself. And then I realize that is not who I want to be I want to be me. The me that God made me to be….

rainbows and promises

a lightness in my soul weight that is lifting as i slowly release it from my grip, my grasp to tightly held doubts, controlling grips and idols, good things that became gods, fears and doubts and pride finally reaching a place where i can actually feel progress. growth. this lump of clay is finally showing…

crumbling

sandcastles aren’t meant to last i wasn’t meant to be a sandcastle sandcastles sparkle for a few minutes only to crumble at the threat of a wave. i wasn’t made to crumble at the sight of a wave my foundation has some rocks but somehow sand got in and worked it’s way in and my…

more or less

in a city filled with skyscrapers that make you feel 2 feet tall and very dizzy if you try to find the top of the building that you are standing next to or dizzy if you take the elevator up and down a few too many times or dizzy if you look out from the…

train tracks

I am learning to lean toward the proactive side and quit falling on the passive side of life my dating convictions have negatively affected the way i pursue life i don’t think there is anything wrong with my dating convictions, they remain strong convictions: do not pursue, girls don’t pursue. however, as i said, it’s…

some words

sooo much good stuff sooo much growth taking place growing stirring healing hoping in me around me surrounding me and within me i feel myself after a long time of feeling off i feel life again i feel joy again i feel whole again.  

all will be

so all of our strivings would be losing without the right Man on our side as we walk along this narrow road crowded with discord and disunity and we try and we try we live in a world that is not our home in the tension of the already and the not  yet we have…

remembrance

her eyes wide awake despite the time as she winds down opens up her twitter app sees something that catches her wide open eyes digs deeper to remember.. why we remember why we must remember history so we may not repeat mistakes so we may learn from history to learn of the losses that everyone…

just some words

questions roam unanswered unidentified uncertain identifying more questions confirmation confusion inner chaos tense wrestling don’t forget to breathe. exhale. let it out seek ask wait climb out get up get past this can i get past this? i’m still here in that place of ??? in that place barely moved fragile in that place of…