blindness: get up and walk

I want to go one direction, and another, I am aimless and my thoughts go every-which way.
But I mustn’t go any further until I take a bit of time to reflect on John 9. We just spent 3 weeks in this passage in church.  And I don’t really know if I have any miracles that I need, certainly not any physical ones except for losing some weight, hardly a miracle need.  The only area I’ve considered miracle needing has been the hurt and confusion of an extremely important relationship, one that leaves me walking around wounded because it’s that broken. For a while it was better, but we’ve had a few steps back instead of forward.

A constant prayer.

Anyways, the thing I’ve been thinking and wondering most about is what I am blinded to – what is my blindness? Pastor Matt said it this way: where do I lack vision?

I have only thought of this a couple times here and there, and I haven’t found my answer yet, but I was just listening to Bethany Dillon’s latest album, Stop & Listen and  as I was listening to the new songs I had to stop and look up the lyrics to this song, Get up and Walk so I could read them while I listened to it over and over again. I literally was about to do something else, read a book and do the study and was just struck by this song, and how appropriate the timing is after studying John 9.  It helps give a bit more perspective and depth in thinking about this.

Get Up & Walk by Bethany Dillon:

I have got no one to blame
Except if that someone’s me
I washed my hands, but just the same
My eyes confess for me
I come in filthy rags
You know I’m guilty

I wake up almost every night
Saying Your name
What I would give to walk in the light
But what I hide has made me lame
My face down on the ground
I wait to hear the healing sound

Chorus:
You break through my deafness
Swing open the curtain
And I find the courage to get up and walk
I forget my weakness
For You’ve answered my loneliness
And through the mud on my eyes
I can see my Hope has come

You’ll have to show me where to go
It’s been so long since I’ve used my feet
I got up today a cripple
And now I’m dancing
So let the power of Your move
Not stop with what I can see

I couldn’t walk
I couldn’t sing
I couldn’t love until You found me

Bethany’s FB page has this little bit about the song:

“Get Up and Walk,” a song inspired by stories of healing throughout the New Testament, is a powerful reminder that God still restores the broken: “The promises in the Bible that grip me the most are the ones of contrast,” Bethany explains, “turning ashes into beauty, heaviness into a garment of praise, being transferred from the domain of darkness to the Kingdom of light. The words of Jesus ring true today, that he (or she) who’s forgiven much, loves much…. I’ve been forgiven of much; I was deaf, blind, and completely lost. But He broke through my deafness, and has forgiven me of much, and I can’t help but love Him much in return.”

Back to my original thought: what’s my blindness, where do I lack vision?

some of my notes from the sermon:
We all lack vision:
-to see what’s important
-to see within;
we assume we can see, unaware we are blind

if you are blind, at least you know you need to be led.

we need to see ourselves, to really reflect on who we are – Examen.

where do you lack vision?
-consider perspective.
-see through the eyes of Christ.

created on purpose, for a purpose

Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105
The Word is TRUTH.

If anything, this is one of the biggest things I find I neglect, but my neglect is not helping. My vision, and lack of vision of self/denying self.

As I am thinking about that I look at this verse:

Bethany’s 2nd verse is this:
I wake up almost every night
Saying Your name
What I would give to walk in the light
But what I hide has made me lame
My face down on the ground
I wait to hear the healing sound

and this is what stands out: “what I hide has made me lame.” what I cannot see are the things I need to see. She continues in the 3rd verse: “you’ll have to show me where to go, it’s been so long since I’ve used my feet”
 {side note: musically it’s great too, the musicality and rhythm are together with the lyrics – the music is moving, the rhythm, is going somewhere, ready to get up and walk.}

So, no conclusions yet, but I am thinking about these questions and praying that my eyes would be opened to where I lack vision.

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